HARDCORE.

Donsergiogregorio Suguitan.

Oooh man. This guy was something else. What I loved the most about this guy was that he only lived down the street from me. I remember the first night we met, he picked me up from Target and took me bowling with his friends. He said when he saw me I looked like some guy named Ethan Mao, which was apparently a movie. We had some good times, watching movies and going on little mini dates. One Valentine’s Day I bought all this stuff and I put it all on top of his car and he loved it. I also remember one time I went to his house we were watching that Ethan Mao movie and his mom asked me why I was gay. Lol. Awkward!! The thing with this guy was that…he wanted me to shave my head. I was like, no!! I don’t talk to him anymore though because I’ll admit, I felt betrayed by him. He ended up getting with one of my good friends and it tore me apart. I thought we had something really good going on, but apparently it was not good enough. After what I did for him! Ugh, jerk! Also, my friend told me that Don didn’t want him hanging out with me and that he doesn’t like me. Fuckin` bitch!

dismissed.

Josh Eria.

AAAAHHHH. Lol. Where to even begin??? Lol. I think we started talking back in Feb because I remember it was around Valentine’s Day. I saw him post a picture with his writing and I messaged him and said his writing is gorgeous. He replied with a pic of an index card saying “Thanks @miahchua you’re gorgeous.” Wow I died when I saw it. I think I asked him to send it to me, and he did. =] He also wrote a message on the back and it smelled like his cologne, which was pleasant smelling. We started to just text about relationships and I guess it just blossomed from there. For the duration of the like 3-4 months we talked, I am happy to say that they have been such good memories. It always made my day when he would be the first person I talked to in the morning (when he would give me wake up calls before he goes to school) and the last person at night (when we slept on the phone). I enjoyed our conversations where we discussed about school and what we wanted in the future. I think that was another factor that attracted me to him was that he was already set on his career in life and he was ambitious to strive for it. Even though he only lived like 1.5 - 2 hours away, it still sucked that I was not always able to see him. I did, however, finally visit him. It was a fun and adventurous day [carne asada fries, Starbucks, Ojai Ranch(?), looking at art books, Tapioca Express and the park]. The part that sucked was when I had to leave. But since then, I would always anticipate the next time I was going to see him. When he posted blogs that referred to me, it never failed to put a smile on my face. There were some people on here, however, who would ruin it for me by telling him that I was a slut or something of that nature. No matter what people said, he still supported me; he also sent me a drawing that had the line from BoB’s song, “Nothing On You.” That was very thoughtful of him. Another thing that made me melt was when he showed a pic of his Morse Code sweater and it said, “I <3 MC.” At first I thought nothing of it; but he then said that the initials also stood for Miah Chua. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! It was so cute!!! I thought everything was going so well. But sadly, all good things come to an end. I guess we just were at different stages of life and we were just two different people living two different lifestyles. Yeah I was sad but hey, maybe it was meant for us to just be friends.

missed.

Jonathan Chhiv.

OMG Jon was so attractive to me for some reason. Not only did I think he was cute, but his intelligence was incredibly sexy to me. He always talked to me about reading books and his vocabulary was extraordinarily impressive. Because of him, i would try to avoid using contractions and use proper grammar because whenever we texted he would always type properly. He would never use contractions and he always used proper capitalization and punctuation. Something about that was extremely attractive. Lol I remember like a couple years ago we decided to create a LiveJournal together haha. That was cute. I always called him “Whalester” because he would have such an enormous appetite that it was not even funny. Of course he reciprocated and called me, “Hippo.” Lol. But oh I remember one time, I made it awkward between us because my friend and I crashed his dinner party with his friends at Buca di Beppo (sp. ?). Good thing all was forgiven and forgotten. I knew nothing would ever happen between us because I was not his type… =( He was mainly attracted to Latinos. I would even ask my friend Chris Alabastro to see if there was any kind of attraction, but no. But at least we are still good friends now. That reminds me…he still owes me a vanilla cupcake!!!!

missed.

Marc Densing. Omg this boy right here is and will always be my silly monkey. Lol. I can’t believe it’s been like 4 years since I knew him. I met him through my ex (Howie) and it was such an awkward position. They were having their own thing, which I had to discover for myself! Lol. Nah but even though that happened, him and I became really good friends and he put up with me through thick and thin. I started to develop an infatuation to him even though I was with my ex at the time. Even so, we just remained as friends and to now we still keep in contact. I am just sad that the time he finally came to OC I was not able to meet him up because he was always busy. The day he was finally able to hang out I was unable to because I was meeting up with Jeremi De Ramos that night. I just hope one day we will meet because I think it is long overdue. We went through so much together…all the guys and all the drama. It has been such a roller coaster of a ride but it was all worth it. Damnit where has all the time gone??? We still have to plan a meetup with Jeppy, Courtney and Will!!! =] I miss you silly monkey!!

missed.

Bryan Millado. Yes I used to have a big ass crush on him. This was back when I was a senior in high school (so maybe 4/5 years ago), before Bryan and I became exposed and corrupt. My friend sent me his link because he thought he was cute and I did too so I ended up adding him (back on Myspace when it was cool). Lol. We would chat and he kept telling me to go drive over and sneak to his house, but I didn’t drive back then yet. Lol. But now we are good friends. He is such a fun guy and I always enjoy myself when he is around. He always bums cigs off me when he sees me! Lol, I don’t mind though. I still have those vids you sent me Bryan!! Lol. So everytime I hear “Shake That Monkey” by Too Short, it reminds me of you! Lol.

missed.

Nathan Dang. OMFG I thought this guy was so FUCKING hot. I met him when I was going through my Viet phase when I was attracted only to Viet guys. We met on DOwnelink like 4/5 years ago and I still think he is extremely gorgeous. It was funny because the same day I gave Nathan my number, I gave it to another guy. So, I got a call and I kept talking and what not and the whole time I thought it was Nathan but it was actually the other guy. Lol. It sucks because the time I got to actually meet up with him, he moved to Texas. Damnit, come back my Viet god. Lol. He has a real sexy low voice. It just turns me on everytime I hear it. =] He is such an awesome photographer too.

missed.

Ahmed Dawood. Awww I miss this guy so much. I remember I thought he was so cute for an Indian guy, not that I am saying that they aren’t attractive. I remember when I started talking to Jeremi was when I found out that he actually wanted to take a chance with me. That totally ruined any chance for a potential relationship. But it’s all good. I remember I met him in person one time because I went to visit him at work when he worked at Express in Brea Mall. We met up during his break for a cig and I was just too shy to say much. I gave him a nickname Doodoo but then I gave him the nickname Med, lol. Tuesday would always be “our” day because I would only message him on Tuesdays and he would always give me a hard time about it when I miss a Tuesday. Lol. Cute. It would be nice if we had another chance again but I know he’s doing big things now so good luck to him.

missed.

William “Willy Boo” Sales. My fifth and most recent ex. I can not fathom how long I have known this guy and yet we still have not met yet. I will always remember how I first started talking to him. He randomly messaged me on Facebook back in 2006 saying he saw me in the Downelink Facebook group and everything else was history. Damn if only you guys could see his default picture, damn he was lookin` hella fine. He was the only guy who “had me at hello.” Since I first started talking to him and to now I still get happy when he talks to me. We had numerous good times together back in the day and I just wish that this would continue. It is still my mission, however, to go to New Jersey and visit him. I will admit, I was extremely jealous when some of my friends met him in person and I found out that “things happened” because I wish it could have been me instead! But in the future maybe, who knows? He is the only guy that I really felt like he was the one for me. He is also like the only guy who after not talking to for months there is still a spark there for me. William Sales is also the only guy I make hand made Christmas cards for and I have NEVER missed a year since I met because he is that special to me. =] One of my goals with him is to also dance with him to Dangerous by Ying Yang Twinz because that was our song. Lol. ILY Willy Boo! Mango misses his Mochi. =]

PS. Doesn’t he look so good in red? I think so.

missed.

Rocky Nguyen. Ok ladies and gentlemen, thank this guy for breaking my club virginity. He was the first guy who ever took me out to a club. It was June 1, 2006 to Club Tigerheat (when it was still at Arena). We met on Downelink I think and we kept talking for a while. He finally asked if I wanted to go with him and his friends to a club. I did not hesitate to accept the offer (I did not take into consideration the fact that I did not know him or his friends and that it was a school night but I was a senior in HS so whatever). I sneaked out my bedroom window and the adrenaline from it was so appealing. When I met him I just fell for him more. He and his friends also took me to my first late night Thai restaurant called Ruen Pair. I got home at like 4 and I had to sneak back into my window, which sucked. I saw him recently and I think he became cuter. ;)

missed.

Billy Nguyen. He is just the most adorable guy ever! I met him on the Downelink chat room I think. It was funny because that same night I went to Rage with my friend and he said he had to pick up a friend, which happened to be Billy! Omg I had so much fun with him at Rage. We danced and I remember he made me sit on his lap for a while. Damn. I remember the exact same outfit I was wearing and there is a song that will always remind me of him. That song is Summer Love by Justin Timberlake. I just love his personality, he is a very sweet and considerate gentleman. Damn I can’t believe I lost my chance! =( But of course I always say hi to him when I see him. =]

missed.

Paul Manuel. Damn I always thought this guy was gorgeous. I remember we met on Myspace a long time ago and we hit it off pretty well on there. I met him once at his house and it was my friend and I who went. His room was cute, he had this big mirror thing on his wall and had people write on it. I liked it. He also offered us chocolates because he said he loved chocolate. After, my friend and I decided to leave. I did, however, went back. I was able to make out with him but I could not do much because my friend was waiting in the car. Damnit I should have just continued! It sucks we don’t talk anymore. But if we did, damn I would get at him!

missed.

Andy Duran. He was one of those guys who I had those like “secret admirer” crushes. When I was a junior in HS my friend told me about him and omg I thought he was gorgeous. I forgot how I met him. I think I met him through a mutual friend. I remember he would go by “Andy Cavalli” (like Roberto Cavalli) and I would go by “Juicy” (you know, like Juicy Couture). I wish that I could have hung out with him more because we live down the street from each other. I think, however, he still goes out with my friend Paul. See, I had to keep this one short because I need to get to know him more. =] Ugh that gorgeous piece of ass!!

missed.